How far along: 30 Weeks(WHAT?!)
Total weight gain: 30 pounds.
Maternity clothes: I have not bought any new clothes. I am just making what I have work.
Stretch marks: I guess they are horrible on my lower stomach, good thing I can't see my lower stomach anymore.
Sleep: So sleeping at the foot of the bed has finally caught up to me. I woke up one morning with a HORRIBLE sinus cold and sore throat. Obviously I moved to the head of the bed again to feel better, and now am back to sweating all night. Cruel joke pregnancy, real cruel.
Best moment of this week: My baby shower is Sunday, the 29th. I am so excited. I can not wait to see everyone and look spiffy in my red dress. Kevin is even going to paint my toe nails since heaven knows I would never be able to do it without him. I did not invite everyone for the gifts so I do not want it to sound that way, but I am also really excited to see what everyone brings for Landon. I want him to have everything he deserves so I am looking forward to seeing all his little goodies.
Miss anything: Not really.
Movement: Still a big fan of when Mommy lays on her side in bed. He goes crazy and it feels like he is throwing punches and kicks all around me.
Food cravings: I haven't craved anything this week either.
Anything making you queasy or sick: My head and nose hurts but that is because of the cold so it does not really count.
Have you started to show yet: Yes.
Belly button in or out: It does not seem to be changing either way anymore.
Wedding rings on or off: Still off.
Happy or moody most of the time: My family found out that my only uncle passed away this week. That has been really hard. He was in the Air Force and our family had some issues with his wife, so his passing has been a really upsetting thing to work through. I have not been nearly as upset as people expected me to be but I believe I am in shock. I am not letting myself believe it or think about it, so I do not get upset because I am telling myself it is not true. After J's death, my heart can't handle another loss. Especially as important as my uncle was to me. I know one day it will hit me hard, everyone else knows one day I will fall apart, but right now I am just sitting back and comforting everyone else because that is easier for me than to stop and realize what truly just happened to me.
Looking forward to: My baby shower and my next doctors appointment on the 30th.
Friday, June 27, 2014
Saturday, June 21, 2014
29 Week Update
How far along: 29 Weeks
Total weight gain: 30 pounds.
Maternity clothes: Same as last week. Except all my shirts(even the long ones) are starting to come up in the front and I am having to pull them down like when I was first pregnant.
Stretch marks: Apparently they look like lightning bolts.
Sleep: We have continued to sleep at the foot of the bed so sleep has been alright. My only issue right now is how hard it is when I end up on my back and how much I toss and turn in general to get comfortable. But oh well.
Best moment of this week: I had a really good night laying in bed talking to Kevin about what we thought birth would be like. We talked about our fears for that day and everything we were excited for. It was really special to just lay there in the dark and talk until we fell asleep. We used to do that on the phone every night when we first started dating, and it is always really fun to focus on each other and just talk with no interruptions.
Miss anything: Not really.
Movement: Yes! I usually wake up to him moving around on whatever side I am laying on. Then throughout the day he moves at various times. He has gotten big enough to touch my ribs at random points in the day and make me jump so everyone stares at me. Kid has always thought he was funny.
Food cravings: I haven't craved anything this week either.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Uncomfortable but I would not say sick or queasy.
Have you started to show yet: Yes.
Belly button in or out: Some days it is more shallow than others.
Wedding rings on or off: I really am missing wearing my ring.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am happy for the most part but can lash out in a moment so...beware. I might bite your head off...or cry.
Looking forward to: My baby shower is the 29th of June. I am so excited.
Total weight gain: 30 pounds.
Maternity clothes: Same as last week. Except all my shirts(even the long ones) are starting to come up in the front and I am having to pull them down like when I was first pregnant.
Stretch marks: Apparently they look like lightning bolts.
Sleep: We have continued to sleep at the foot of the bed so sleep has been alright. My only issue right now is how hard it is when I end up on my back and how much I toss and turn in general to get comfortable. But oh well.
Best moment of this week: I had a really good night laying in bed talking to Kevin about what we thought birth would be like. We talked about our fears for that day and everything we were excited for. It was really special to just lay there in the dark and talk until we fell asleep. We used to do that on the phone every night when we first started dating, and it is always really fun to focus on each other and just talk with no interruptions.
Miss anything: Not really.
Movement: Yes! I usually wake up to him moving around on whatever side I am laying on. Then throughout the day he moves at various times. He has gotten big enough to touch my ribs at random points in the day and make me jump so everyone stares at me. Kid has always thought he was funny.
Food cravings: I haven't craved anything this week either.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Uncomfortable but I would not say sick or queasy.
Have you started to show yet: Yes.
Belly button in or out: Some days it is more shallow than others.
Wedding rings on or off: I really am missing wearing my ring.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am happy for the most part but can lash out in a moment so...beware. I might bite your head off...or cry.
Looking forward to: My baby shower is the 29th of June. I am so excited.
Friday, June 13, 2014
28 Week Update
How far along: 28 Weeks*3rd Trimester!!!!*(This size thing seems stupid to me. I could put one number and he isn't even near that. So I don't think I am going to do this anymore, unless I actually have HIS size to note. )
Total weight gain: 30 pounds.
Maternity clothes: Same as last week. Except all my shirts(even the long ones) are starting to come up in the front and I am having to pull them down like when I was first pregnant.
Stretch marks: Apparently they look like lightning bolts.
Sleep: Our room has been horrible with heat the past few days. We have a fan at the end of our bed and have actually started sleeping down there just to get some air. It is not pleasant.
Best moment of this week: Last night I was laying in bed and Kevin did his normal talking to Landon like he does every night. He was telling Landon how he wanted to tell him a secret. He presses his mouth to my skin and whispered something. Immediately Landon kicked so hard that I jumped. Kevin got SO EXCITED! He kept saying, "Wow, that was so cool!" over and over. It is so cute watching them interact with each other. I can't wait until they finally meet each other face to face.
Miss anything: Not really.
Movement: Yes! He goes wild when I am laying in bed on my side. Starts punching the mattress. One night I think he was trying to crawl out or something, maybe turn over, because the side of my stomach suddenly pushed out twice and then was normal again. Of course, I was the only person that saw it.
Food cravings: I haven't craved anything this week either.
Anything making you queasy or sick: I have some days where I just feel off. I do not know how to describe it. I am not a certain something like nauseous or crampy. I just feel....off. It really sucks because I do not even know what I am feeling in order to fix the problem.
Have you started to show yet: Yes.
Belly button in or out: Some days it is more shallow than others.
Wedding rings on or off: I really am missing wearing my ring.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am happy for the most part but can lash out in a moment so...beware. I might bite your head off...or cry.
Looking forward to: I seriously can't wait to meet him. I mean, I can because I want him to be big and strong so he needs to cook longer. But I just am so excited to see his little face and kiss him all over.
Doctors Appointment: So I went to my doctors appointment and everything looked really good she said. My urine,blood pressure,and weight were good. My glucose test results came back with a 137 and she said that is passing. When she measured me she said that Landon is measuring two weeks ahead at 30 weeks. Not suprising at all. He is no longer able to run away from the doppler so as soon as she put the wand to me, his heartbeat was perfect. Happy to hear that everything is going well. I go back on the 30th.
Total weight gain: 30 pounds.
Maternity clothes: Same as last week. Except all my shirts(even the long ones) are starting to come up in the front and I am having to pull them down like when I was first pregnant.
Stretch marks: Apparently they look like lightning bolts.
Sleep: Our room has been horrible with heat the past few days. We have a fan at the end of our bed and have actually started sleeping down there just to get some air. It is not pleasant.
Best moment of this week: Last night I was laying in bed and Kevin did his normal talking to Landon like he does every night. He was telling Landon how he wanted to tell him a secret. He presses his mouth to my skin and whispered something. Immediately Landon kicked so hard that I jumped. Kevin got SO EXCITED! He kept saying, "Wow, that was so cool!" over and over. It is so cute watching them interact with each other. I can't wait until they finally meet each other face to face.
Miss anything: Not really.
Movement: Yes! He goes wild when I am laying in bed on my side. Starts punching the mattress. One night I think he was trying to crawl out or something, maybe turn over, because the side of my stomach suddenly pushed out twice and then was normal again. Of course, I was the only person that saw it.
Food cravings: I haven't craved anything this week either.
Anything making you queasy or sick: I have some days where I just feel off. I do not know how to describe it. I am not a certain something like nauseous or crampy. I just feel....off. It really sucks because I do not even know what I am feeling in order to fix the problem.
Have you started to show yet: Yes.
Belly button in or out: Some days it is more shallow than others.
Wedding rings on or off: I really am missing wearing my ring.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am happy for the most part but can lash out in a moment so...beware. I might bite your head off...or cry.
Looking forward to: I seriously can't wait to meet him. I mean, I can because I want him to be big and strong so he needs to cook longer. But I just am so excited to see his little face and kiss him all over.
Doctors Appointment: So I went to my doctors appointment and everything looked really good she said. My urine,blood pressure,and weight were good. My glucose test results came back with a 137 and she said that is passing. When she measured me she said that Landon is measuring two weeks ahead at 30 weeks. Not suprising at all. He is no longer able to run away from the doppler so as soon as she put the wand to me, his heartbeat was perfect. Happy to hear that everything is going well. I go back on the 30th.
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
Friday, June 6, 2014
27 Week Update
How far along: 27 Weeks(Landon is around 2 pounds and 14 1\2 inches long )
Total weight gain: 25 pounds.
Maternity clothes: Kevin had some extra money so he bought me my baby shower dress. It is red and so pretty. I love it.
Stretch marks: Apparently they look like lightning bolts.
Sleep: I have the worst time turning over. I make noises that feel unneccessary yet as soon as I start moving, out the grunts and sighs come.
Best moment of this week: L and N move home today for the summer. It really sucks because this summer they are here a shorter time due to school starting early August. But still, great to have them with us.
Miss anything: Being able to move freely without getting tired.
Movement: I seriously want everyone to feel him but he only moves when nobody but me is around. As soon as someone else is there, "crickets".
Food cravings:Still seem to have no appetite.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope!
Have you started to show yet: Yup, I seriously need to get to another internet source and upload some pictures. I hate that there are no pictures on here.
Belly button in or out: Some days it is more shallow than others.
Wedding rings on or off: I really am missing wearing my ring.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am happy for the most part but can lash out in a moment so...beware. I might bite your head off...or cry.
Looking forward to: My doctors appointment on the 9th. I took my glucose test on the 2nd and it actually wasn't that bad. The orange drink burned my throat but it was not that bad, and I laid down while getting blood drawn and had no issues with passing out. Yay! I find out my results on the 9th but I am figuring it is good news or else they would have called me.
Friday, May 30, 2014
26 Week Update
How far along: 26 Weeks(Landon is around 1 2\3 pounds and 14 inches long )
Total weight gain: 25 pounds.
Maternity clothes: I need to get some more dresses because it is hot outside and these jeans are killer.
Stretch marks: Yes. Very much so.
Sleep: I am doing much better this week with laying on my arm. Very happy about that.
Best moment of this week: My family went swimming this week. It is so hot outside and it felt amazing to be in the cool water.
Miss anything: Being able to move freely without getting tired.
Movement: He has some wild days. It is very distracting at work but I love it.
Food cravings: I have not really had any cravings this week. In fact, I have been having trouble thinking of anything to eat at all.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope!
Have you started to show yet: Sure am. When I took my outer clothes off at the pool N stared at my stomach and said, "That is a BIG belly." Thanks N.
Belly button in or out: My mom told me that her belly button always flattened out during pregnancy. I can see that happening.
Wedding rings on or off: Around my neck. There is no chance of it going on my finger.
Happy or moody most of the time: I had a rough day this week. I got really depressed in the morning for no reason and could not shake it all day. I was angry and tearful but had no reason why I felt that way. It was really bad. Kevin kept trying to make me feel better but everything he said I turned around on him. It was just not a fun day at all but I woke up the next morning feeling much better so I have no idea why my hormones were so crazy that day.
Looking forward to: Not my glucose test next week.
Total weight gain: 25 pounds.
Maternity clothes: I need to get some more dresses because it is hot outside and these jeans are killer.
Stretch marks: Yes. Very much so.
Sleep: I am doing much better this week with laying on my arm. Very happy about that.
Best moment of this week: My family went swimming this week. It is so hot outside and it felt amazing to be in the cool water.
Miss anything: Being able to move freely without getting tired.
Movement: He has some wild days. It is very distracting at work but I love it.
Food cravings: I have not really had any cravings this week. In fact, I have been having trouble thinking of anything to eat at all.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope!
Have you started to show yet: Sure am. When I took my outer clothes off at the pool N stared at my stomach and said, "That is a BIG belly." Thanks N.
Belly button in or out: My mom told me that her belly button always flattened out during pregnancy. I can see that happening.
Wedding rings on or off: Around my neck. There is no chance of it going on my finger.
Happy or moody most of the time: I had a rough day this week. I got really depressed in the morning for no reason and could not shake it all day. I was angry and tearful but had no reason why I felt that way. It was really bad. Kevin kept trying to make me feel better but everything he said I turned around on him. It was just not a fun day at all but I woke up the next morning feeling much better so I have no idea why my hormones were so crazy that day.
Looking forward to: Not my glucose test next week.
Sunday, May 25, 2014
A Year Ago Today
A year ago today I posted my first blog entry here. Did I have plans for the way this blog would work out? Sure did. Was I completely wrong about those plans? Sure was. Don't think this entry is going to be all sad and depressed. I do not regret for a second starting this blog and I do not regret for a second what happened. I still truly believe that everything happens for a reason. My point is that you just never know what will be the same and different in a matters time. Last year my mother had almost died weeks prior, I was getting married with rose colored glasses, and this blog was just something I would do until I got bored. Now a year later, my mother is doing extremely well with thankfully only a couple lasting effects from last year, I am still getting married but have more appreciation for my relationship, my blog is a source of comfort and freedom for me whenever I need it. And best of all, I have an awesome little boy on his way to me.
I have learned in this past year that you just never know what the next day holds. One day you believe many things are one way and the next everything is changed. That can be a good thing and that can be a hard thing at times. What happened last year pulled the rug out from under my feet but it showed me what I needed to see. I know what I need to appreciate in my life and relationship and I know what still needs to be fixed or the problems it can eventually cause. That is knowledge I did not have last year. I was so focused on the wedding that I was ignoring what was right in front of me. I lost something very important to me and it woke me and Kevin up big time. We also learned not to let just anyone into our life because their intentions might not be good. We gave our trust to people who hurt us in a way that we will never forget. Toxic people were let into our life and caused destruction until the day they were out of it. We will never forget the cruel things that were said about us and to us and I can promise you, it will not be allowed again. I will not let my family be torn apart like that every again. I will not live in hell ever again. We know what is at stake if we do not take our relationship seriously, and now with Landon that is even more important. I have learned in this past year that the two of us are not perfect and we both have stuff we still need to work on with ourselves, but we love each other and are committed to each other no matter what and we love Landon and the three of us deserve to give our family the best shot possible. Last year was a bad time but we got through it and now we have a happiness and respect that I am so glad to have. I did not know I would gain that when I wrote last year's post.
A year ago I was not aware that J would play the part in our life's that he did. He was an incredible man and it still feels wrong that he was gone so suddenly and without any goodbyes. I believe he is looking down from Heaven and watching over all of us to make sure we are alright. He is missed every day by so many people who loved him dearly. He is another reason for me learning how precious every day is. One day he was fine and sitting on the couch. The next day I am sitting in a room full of his loved ones in tears and wondering how this could happen. It is a moment and a feeling that I will never forget.
I am not going to try and predict exactly what will be wrote in next years entry because I just don't know. Of course I have stuff I would assume would be in the next entry such as talking about Kevin and Landon, but I can not tell you details because I have not lived them. But I do believe that no matter what happens, I am excited to live this next year and find out how my life changes in a matter of a year.
I have learned in this past year that you just never know what the next day holds. One day you believe many things are one way and the next everything is changed. That can be a good thing and that can be a hard thing at times. What happened last year pulled the rug out from under my feet but it showed me what I needed to see. I know what I need to appreciate in my life and relationship and I know what still needs to be fixed or the problems it can eventually cause. That is knowledge I did not have last year. I was so focused on the wedding that I was ignoring what was right in front of me. I lost something very important to me and it woke me and Kevin up big time. We also learned not to let just anyone into our life because their intentions might not be good. We gave our trust to people who hurt us in a way that we will never forget. Toxic people were let into our life and caused destruction until the day they were out of it. We will never forget the cruel things that were said about us and to us and I can promise you, it will not be allowed again. I will not let my family be torn apart like that every again. I will not live in hell ever again. We know what is at stake if we do not take our relationship seriously, and now with Landon that is even more important. I have learned in this past year that the two of us are not perfect and we both have stuff we still need to work on with ourselves, but we love each other and are committed to each other no matter what and we love Landon and the three of us deserve to give our family the best shot possible. Last year was a bad time but we got through it and now we have a happiness and respect that I am so glad to have. I did not know I would gain that when I wrote last year's post.
A year ago I was not aware that J would play the part in our life's that he did. He was an incredible man and it still feels wrong that he was gone so suddenly and without any goodbyes. I believe he is looking down from Heaven and watching over all of us to make sure we are alright. He is missed every day by so many people who loved him dearly. He is another reason for me learning how precious every day is. One day he was fine and sitting on the couch. The next day I am sitting in a room full of his loved ones in tears and wondering how this could happen. It is a moment and a feeling that I will never forget.
I am not going to try and predict exactly what will be wrote in next years entry because I just don't know. Of course I have stuff I would assume would be in the next entry such as talking about Kevin and Landon, but I can not tell you details because I have not lived them. But I do believe that no matter what happens, I am excited to live this next year and find out how my life changes in a matter of a year.
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