Tuesday, September 30, 2014
Wednesday, September 24, 2014
Landon's First Month
This past month has been a lot of learning for everyone. Many tears have been shed by me out of fear and frustration. I did not expect to be so overwhelmed by everything. I have had many moments where I feel like I am just failing miserably and Landon will hate me forever.
I have had many moments where I am so stressed, that I don't think of the obvious solution to the problem. For example, our first trip to walmart left me and Landon hysterical because I was so overwhelmed by him being hungry that I didn't even think to take him out of his stroller and hold him until I was able to feed him. As soon as he was held he stopped crying and I felt horrible for not thinking of it myself.
I am not saying all this to complain. I would gladly take all the frustration over and over for him. I am simply being honest. This month has been hard and it has been scary and it has been exhausting. But it has also been amazing. Every day I become more and more confident in my ability to care for him. I learn more about Landon's personality and adapt to his likes and dislikes. I learn to take a breath and just stare at him thinking about how much I love him. I slowly have figured out ways to make everyones life easier and stopped trying to be perfect. I have learned about what the book says I should be doing and what I know is right for my son as his mother. I know there will always be bad days thrown into the good ones but I am trying to take each day as a learning experience and just do what I need to do to get through it.
My brain is a fog lately but I am going to try and give updates on various things as best as I can.
My healing has been going really well. Right after I gave birth I had trouble peeing and I swore I would never leave the hospital. But eventually I was able to do what I had to do. The nurses pushing on my stomach hurt like hell and I understand why everyone hates it now. The first two weeks were horrible when it came to getting out of bed. I felt horrible because it would take me about five minutes to get up and do something. I hated moving so slow but if I moved any faster the pain made me regret it. I had heard great things about that numbing spray but it didn't really do anything for me. The Tux pads however, AMAZING! I loved them and will definitely be stocking up with the next baby. Even though recovery hurt, I am thankful it was not as bad as it could have been. And one day it just didn't hurt as bad and every day after has gotten increasingly better.
My whole life I knew I wanted to breastfeed. I loved how much it could be beneficial for baby. I loved how much it can do for the mother and bonding the two. So my whole pregnancy I told myself and everyone else I would breastfeed. Landon came out and started eating like a champ. I was so proud of myself. As the weeks went on I encountered trouble. Breastfeeding became horrible. I was in so much pain everytime he ate and the entire time he ate, that it made me fear the next time he would get hungry. I began to hate breastfeeding because it caused me such pain which caused Landon to not get enough because I could not wait until he would finish and the pain would stop. One night when Landon was crying with hunger and I was in tears in pain and feeling frustrated, I decided to give him a sample I had gotten of formula. He was instantly happy. I felt like I had failed because I wanted to feed him only from me. I felt like I had let both of us down. But after talking to Kevin and my mom about it, I realized I had to do what was necessary for my own sanity. Making myself miserable would not benefit him. I also realized that just because I give him formula does not mean I can't still give him breastmilk. I got some formula and started giving it to him along with feeding him breastmilk as much as I could with a pump. It turns out that he had a case of thrush and that, mixed with normal cracked nipples, is what made the experience so painful. He got started on medicine and since then, feeding him has not had any pain. Unfortunately my supply plummeted due to feeding him formula and not pumping as much as I should have. I know if I work my butt off I could increase it but since I am going back to work, I just decided to continue with formula and maintain the supply I currently have. So he gets mainly formula, bottles of breastmilk when I pump it, and I try to feed him from me as much as possible because now that the pain is gone, I truly enjoy spending that time close with him. I wish thrush had been the first thing I had looked for and maybe I would not have been that in pain and he could have been solely breastfed. But I did what felt right for us and we both have been happier since. I still have moments where I feel like I failed him but I try to tell myself that as long as my baby is fed, I have not failed him.
Kevin and I have definitely had to adjust to not only being a couple but also parents. We have had to figure out how to balance eachother and a new baby who always needs us. The tiredness definitely adds stress and makes us snap at eachother occasionally. But we know how important it is that we keep our relationship strong so when we are really stressed, we try to take a deep breath and hug it out. All stress aside, he has been incredible this past month. I have cried many times for no reason simply due to hormones and he has comforted me every time. He has told me many times how amazing a mother I am and it helps my confidence a lot. He is great with Landon and it really does make me love him even more. We both have no idea what we are doing but we are sticking together as we figure it out. I cant imagine what it is like for the women who do not have a supportive significant other. I truly feel lucky to have someone who will hold my hand when I feel overwhelmed and tell me it will be alright and we will get through it together. He is so incredible and I fall more and more in love with him every day.
I also have to give my mother credit. She has been right next to Kevin giving me support. I have cried many a times in her presence as well. She has been the one teaching me that I don't have to follow the books, just do what is right for my son. Anytime I have a question about something, I go to her and she gives me an honest answer. She is who actually told me I was right about his thrush. I am just so thankful for her as well and believe our relationship has grown as well as she teaches me what she knows. Just like Kevin and I, my mom and I are trying to figure out how our relationship works as well. She has always been the "mother" and had to do everything. So now she is trying to learn how to be the "Nana" and let me be his mother. I am trying to learn that I do not have to feel like a sister when she helps me. I am his mother and he knows that. His love for his Nana will not take away from his love for me. I know she has trouble with letting me be a mother but not wanting me to be overwhelmed because she is still my mother. I have a new appreciation for how hard it is to be a mother and everything she dealt with for me and my brothers. After dealing with a normal baby crying at night, I can't imagine the stress my colic caused her.
This month has been a rollercoaster, but it has been worth every second and I cant wait to see what the next month brings.
I have had many moments where I am so stressed, that I don't think of the obvious solution to the problem. For example, our first trip to walmart left me and Landon hysterical because I was so overwhelmed by him being hungry that I didn't even think to take him out of his stroller and hold him until I was able to feed him. As soon as he was held he stopped crying and I felt horrible for not thinking of it myself.
I am not saying all this to complain. I would gladly take all the frustration over and over for him. I am simply being honest. This month has been hard and it has been scary and it has been exhausting. But it has also been amazing. Every day I become more and more confident in my ability to care for him. I learn more about Landon's personality and adapt to his likes and dislikes. I learn to take a breath and just stare at him thinking about how much I love him. I slowly have figured out ways to make everyones life easier and stopped trying to be perfect. I have learned about what the book says I should be doing and what I know is right for my son as his mother. I know there will always be bad days thrown into the good ones but I am trying to take each day as a learning experience and just do what I need to do to get through it.
My brain is a fog lately but I am going to try and give updates on various things as best as I can.
My healing has been going really well. Right after I gave birth I had trouble peeing and I swore I would never leave the hospital. But eventually I was able to do what I had to do. The nurses pushing on my stomach hurt like hell and I understand why everyone hates it now. The first two weeks were horrible when it came to getting out of bed. I felt horrible because it would take me about five minutes to get up and do something. I hated moving so slow but if I moved any faster the pain made me regret it. I had heard great things about that numbing spray but it didn't really do anything for me. The Tux pads however, AMAZING! I loved them and will definitely be stocking up with the next baby. Even though recovery hurt, I am thankful it was not as bad as it could have been. And one day it just didn't hurt as bad and every day after has gotten increasingly better.
My whole life I knew I wanted to breastfeed. I loved how much it could be beneficial for baby. I loved how much it can do for the mother and bonding the two. So my whole pregnancy I told myself and everyone else I would breastfeed. Landon came out and started eating like a champ. I was so proud of myself. As the weeks went on I encountered trouble. Breastfeeding became horrible. I was in so much pain everytime he ate and the entire time he ate, that it made me fear the next time he would get hungry. I began to hate breastfeeding because it caused me such pain which caused Landon to not get enough because I could not wait until he would finish and the pain would stop. One night when Landon was crying with hunger and I was in tears in pain and feeling frustrated, I decided to give him a sample I had gotten of formula. He was instantly happy. I felt like I had failed because I wanted to feed him only from me. I felt like I had let both of us down. But after talking to Kevin and my mom about it, I realized I had to do what was necessary for my own sanity. Making myself miserable would not benefit him. I also realized that just because I give him formula does not mean I can't still give him breastmilk. I got some formula and started giving it to him along with feeding him breastmilk as much as I could with a pump. It turns out that he had a case of thrush and that, mixed with normal cracked nipples, is what made the experience so painful. He got started on medicine and since then, feeding him has not had any pain. Unfortunately my supply plummeted due to feeding him formula and not pumping as much as I should have. I know if I work my butt off I could increase it but since I am going back to work, I just decided to continue with formula and maintain the supply I currently have. So he gets mainly formula, bottles of breastmilk when I pump it, and I try to feed him from me as much as possible because now that the pain is gone, I truly enjoy spending that time close with him. I wish thrush had been the first thing I had looked for and maybe I would not have been that in pain and he could have been solely breastfed. But I did what felt right for us and we both have been happier since. I still have moments where I feel like I failed him but I try to tell myself that as long as my baby is fed, I have not failed him.
Kevin and I have definitely had to adjust to not only being a couple but also parents. We have had to figure out how to balance eachother and a new baby who always needs us. The tiredness definitely adds stress and makes us snap at eachother occasionally. But we know how important it is that we keep our relationship strong so when we are really stressed, we try to take a deep breath and hug it out. All stress aside, he has been incredible this past month. I have cried many times for no reason simply due to hormones and he has comforted me every time. He has told me many times how amazing a mother I am and it helps my confidence a lot. He is great with Landon and it really does make me love him even more. We both have no idea what we are doing but we are sticking together as we figure it out. I cant imagine what it is like for the women who do not have a supportive significant other. I truly feel lucky to have someone who will hold my hand when I feel overwhelmed and tell me it will be alright and we will get through it together. He is so incredible and I fall more and more in love with him every day.
I also have to give my mother credit. She has been right next to Kevin giving me support. I have cried many a times in her presence as well. She has been the one teaching me that I don't have to follow the books, just do what is right for my son. Anytime I have a question about something, I go to her and she gives me an honest answer. She is who actually told me I was right about his thrush. I am just so thankful for her as well and believe our relationship has grown as well as she teaches me what she knows. Just like Kevin and I, my mom and I are trying to figure out how our relationship works as well. She has always been the "mother" and had to do everything. So now she is trying to learn how to be the "Nana" and let me be his mother. I am trying to learn that I do not have to feel like a sister when she helps me. I am his mother and he knows that. His love for his Nana will not take away from his love for me. I know she has trouble with letting me be a mother but not wanting me to be overwhelmed because she is still my mother. I have a new appreciation for how hard it is to be a mother and everything she dealt with for me and my brothers. After dealing with a normal baby crying at night, I can't imagine the stress my colic caused her.
This month has been a rollercoaster, but it has been worth every second and I cant wait to see what the next month brings.
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
Landon's Birth Story
I spent months preparing for him. Weeks telling myself my body was defective and he would never come. Days trying to figure out just what I needed to do to meet him. But it took seconds to fall in love with him. Everything everyone said about love. Everything I was terrified of not feeling, I understand now.
August 27th
Kevin had the day off work so we were spending the day together. I was feeling down because I still had not shown any signs of labor and I felt huge and sore. We had to pick up a money order for rent and some milk so we headed to Walmart. I was enjoying being out of the house and walking so as we were leaving, I made the comment that I really wanted to keep walking but it was so hot outside. He asked if I wanted to drop the milk off at home and then walk around the mall. I said yes and within the hour we were walking into the mall. We ended up spending about five hours there walking around the stores, trying the new shake store they had just opened, and talking about the future. It was an extremely great day and little did we know, it would be the last day we had before things got exciting.
In the late afternoon we left the mall and went home. All the walking left us both tired so we just relaxed for the rest of the night.
August 28th
I woke up at 4 am and needed to use the bathroom. As I went to wipe I noticed there was a little bit of blood. I got really excited about the possibility of something happening soon and couldn't wait for Kevin to wake up so I could tell him. I went back to bed, expecting to go right back to sleep. That is when I noticed my stomach really hurt. I could not sleep due to the pain so I got up and went to the living room. As I was sitting there I decided to time the pains. I was not expecting them to be exactly five minutes apart. I continued to time them for the next few hours. Around 8am I went into the bedroom and laid with Kevin. After awhile of laying down, I realized my contractions were 3/4 minutes apart. I decided we needed to head towards the hospital. I had a doctor's appointment at 3pm so I figured if my contractions stopped then I would go to the doctor's. If they didn't then I would go to the hospital.
Kevin and I rode the bus there and I knew I needed to eat in case I got admitted. I tried my hardest to eat something from McDonald's but the constant pains left me without an appetite. I ate what I could and decided that I would not make it to my appointment. Even though it was obvious something was happening, I still kept feeling like it wasn't real and I was just being a wuss. Even while I am on the side of the road breathing through the pain, I don't trust my own instinct. I ended up being that woman the nurses are staring at when I walked through the doors of Labor and Delivery and suddenly doubled over in pain. Once I was able to stand up again, they immediately got me into a bed. I was checked and they said I was at a 3 dilated. The doctor on call told me I could be awhile since it was my first baby.
I could tell he wanted to send me home to progress but after hearing I rode the bus, they gave me an hour to see if I dilated anymore and when I did, they admitted me. After this point honestly everything got blurry. I don't know why it feels this way but it is almost like I wasn't really there. Maybe it is due to the pain or exhaustion. In a way I feel like I was rushed. I was barely in the room and they were telling me about getting started on pitocin and breaking my water. They told me the epidural guy would be in after my water was broken. Ii did not mind the epidural but was not sure why I was getting pitocin when I had not even had a chance to labor. Even when I was on the pitocin, they kept upping the dose. I would say what I thought it was at and Kevin would tell me it was higher. It was really confusing. A part of me feels like I should not have been rushed like that but it was not really traumatic do I am not really that upset. It was just strange. After I had gotten admitted, Kevin called my mom and they stayed by my side the whole time.My grandparents came up and visited for awhile before going to sleep at my mother's house for the night.
Each time I got checked they told me I was closer and closer to meeting my baby. I kept telling myself I was so close to what I had been waiting for. As I was laying there, a pain in my hip kept getting worse. I told the nurses and they tried to help but the pain soon became horrendous. The epidural did not work in that one spot. Pitocin as high as possible, contractions back to back, and I can feel it in my hip. It was horrible. The nurse told me to do some practice pushes and after awhile mom and Kevin said they could see his head as it moved down. The nurse left to call the doctor.
August 29th
I was so close to being done and all I wanted was to push my baby out and meet this precious baby boy. I had my eyes closed so I could focus but I listened to mom and Kevin as they told me how well I was doing and how close he was. I let it motivate me to push as hard as I could. I could do this. Finally I heard someone tell me to open my eyes. I did and watched Landon come out and be put on my chest. He looked nothing like I had imagined yet he was perfect in my eyes. I looked up at Kevin and his face was pure love. They took Landon to be weighed. Mom went with him and I gripped Kevin's hand for dear life as the placenta was delivered and I was sewed up. After we were both done with what had to be done, they brought him over and I got to hold my sweet little boy.
I am pleased to formally introduce the newest member of this blog.
Landon L. Ellis
Born August 29th,2014 (His second due date)
5:47am
8pounds 1 ounce and 20 inches long.
August 27th
Kevin had the day off work so we were spending the day together. I was feeling down because I still had not shown any signs of labor and I felt huge and sore. We had to pick up a money order for rent and some milk so we headed to Walmart. I was enjoying being out of the house and walking so as we were leaving, I made the comment that I really wanted to keep walking but it was so hot outside. He asked if I wanted to drop the milk off at home and then walk around the mall. I said yes and within the hour we were walking into the mall. We ended up spending about five hours there walking around the stores, trying the new shake store they had just opened, and talking about the future. It was an extremely great day and little did we know, it would be the last day we had before things got exciting.
In the late afternoon we left the mall and went home. All the walking left us both tired so we just relaxed for the rest of the night.
August 28th
I woke up at 4 am and needed to use the bathroom. As I went to wipe I noticed there was a little bit of blood. I got really excited about the possibility of something happening soon and couldn't wait for Kevin to wake up so I could tell him. I went back to bed, expecting to go right back to sleep. That is when I noticed my stomach really hurt. I could not sleep due to the pain so I got up and went to the living room. As I was sitting there I decided to time the pains. I was not expecting them to be exactly five minutes apart. I continued to time them for the next few hours. Around 8am I went into the bedroom and laid with Kevin. After awhile of laying down, I realized my contractions were 3/4 minutes apart. I decided we needed to head towards the hospital. I had a doctor's appointment at 3pm so I figured if my contractions stopped then I would go to the doctor's. If they didn't then I would go to the hospital.
Kevin and I rode the bus there and I knew I needed to eat in case I got admitted. I tried my hardest to eat something from McDonald's but the constant pains left me without an appetite. I ate what I could and decided that I would not make it to my appointment. Even though it was obvious something was happening, I still kept feeling like it wasn't real and I was just being a wuss. Even while I am on the side of the road breathing through the pain, I don't trust my own instinct. I ended up being that woman the nurses are staring at when I walked through the doors of Labor and Delivery and suddenly doubled over in pain. Once I was able to stand up again, they immediately got me into a bed. I was checked and they said I was at a 3 dilated. The doctor on call told me I could be awhile since it was my first baby.
I could tell he wanted to send me home to progress but after hearing I rode the bus, they gave me an hour to see if I dilated anymore and when I did, they admitted me. After this point honestly everything got blurry. I don't know why it feels this way but it is almost like I wasn't really there. Maybe it is due to the pain or exhaustion. In a way I feel like I was rushed. I was barely in the room and they were telling me about getting started on pitocin and breaking my water. They told me the epidural guy would be in after my water was broken. Ii did not mind the epidural but was not sure why I was getting pitocin when I had not even had a chance to labor. Even when I was on the pitocin, they kept upping the dose. I would say what I thought it was at and Kevin would tell me it was higher. It was really confusing. A part of me feels like I should not have been rushed like that but it was not really traumatic do I am not really that upset. It was just strange. After I had gotten admitted, Kevin called my mom and they stayed by my side the whole time.My grandparents came up and visited for awhile before going to sleep at my mother's house for the night.
Each time I got checked they told me I was closer and closer to meeting my baby. I kept telling myself I was so close to what I had been waiting for. As I was laying there, a pain in my hip kept getting worse. I told the nurses and they tried to help but the pain soon became horrendous. The epidural did not work in that one spot. Pitocin as high as possible, contractions back to back, and I can feel it in my hip. It was horrible. The nurse told me to do some practice pushes and after awhile mom and Kevin said they could see his head as it moved down. The nurse left to call the doctor.
August 29th
I was so close to being done and all I wanted was to push my baby out and meet this precious baby boy. I had my eyes closed so I could focus but I listened to mom and Kevin as they told me how well I was doing and how close he was. I let it motivate me to push as hard as I could. I could do this. Finally I heard someone tell me to open my eyes. I did and watched Landon come out and be put on my chest. He looked nothing like I had imagined yet he was perfect in my eyes. I looked up at Kevin and his face was pure love. They took Landon to be weighed. Mom went with him and I gripped Kevin's hand for dear life as the placenta was delivered and I was sewed up. After we were both done with what had to be done, they brought him over and I got to hold my sweet little boy.
I am pleased to formally introduce the newest member of this blog.
Landon L. Ellis
Born August 29th,2014 (His second due date)
5:47am
8pounds 1 ounce and 20 inches long.
Friday, August 22, 2014
38 Week Update
How far along: 38 Weeks
Total weight gain: 33 pounds. (I lost a pound since last week)
Maternity clothes: Just using what I got. No use buying new stuff.
Stretch marks: I don't seem to have any new ones. Just the gigantic ones that were there from the beginning.
Sleep: The sleep is fine. The horrendous pain in my right hip EVERY NIGHT is not.
Best moment of this week: I always enjoy when Kevin can go to the doctors with me. We end up being gone all day but it is really fun to hangout with him instead of being on the bus by myself for hours with nobody to talk to.
Miss anything: Just being able to move around.
Movement: His movement has been great as usual. He has no room so the moving feels different than before but it is still at his usual times. He really hates if anything is touching my stomach. Including my own arm. I wonder if this means he will not like to cuddle or be touched. I sure hope not. That would be sad.
Food cravings: I still really want a tuna and egg sandwich.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing in particular.
Have you started to show yet: Yes.
Belly button in or out: It depends on where he is positioned, but as far as I know it never actually pops out any.
Wedding rings on or off: Still off.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am excited! So very excited!
Looking forward to: This week is my last week of work before maternity leave. I did not believe I would make it this far so I feel relieved yet really anxious. Now every day that goes by that he is not here, is a week of maternity leave I do not get with him.
Doctors Appointment- At my doctors appointment they asked about my contractions and I told them I had a couple but that my biggest problem was pressure. I can barely walk due to it. So the nurse said even though the doctor that day usually does not check until 39 weeks, she would take a look just to see what was going on down there. I ended up being 1 1\2 dilated and 100% effaced. She "thought" that I would not make it to my next appointment, let alone past this weekend but...we will see. I know just because she thinks something does not automatically mean it will happen. But I reeeallllyyy hope she is right. My next appointment is Thursday the 28th but they all said they hope I am not at it. Her checking me caused me a lot of contractions and some bleeding so I got excited but they eventually stopped and now I am just waiting again.
Labor signs- See above.
It just occured to me that since I will no longer be at work, I will no longer have access to a computer to do these updates. Hmmm. I might be able to do some sort of update on my phone but I make no promises since I have never tried to know what my phone is capable of. No matter what, as soon as I am able to update I will. I promise.
Total weight gain: 33 pounds. (I lost a pound since last week)
Maternity clothes: Just using what I got. No use buying new stuff.
Stretch marks: I don't seem to have any new ones. Just the gigantic ones that were there from the beginning.
Sleep: The sleep is fine. The horrendous pain in my right hip EVERY NIGHT is not.
Best moment of this week: I always enjoy when Kevin can go to the doctors with me. We end up being gone all day but it is really fun to hangout with him instead of being on the bus by myself for hours with nobody to talk to.
Miss anything: Just being able to move around.
Movement: His movement has been great as usual. He has no room so the moving feels different than before but it is still at his usual times. He really hates if anything is touching my stomach. Including my own arm. I wonder if this means he will not like to cuddle or be touched. I sure hope not. That would be sad.
Food cravings: I still really want a tuna and egg sandwich.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing in particular.
Have you started to show yet: Yes.
Belly button in or out: It depends on where he is positioned, but as far as I know it never actually pops out any.
Wedding rings on or off: Still off.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am excited! So very excited!
Looking forward to: This week is my last week of work before maternity leave. I did not believe I would make it this far so I feel relieved yet really anxious. Now every day that goes by that he is not here, is a week of maternity leave I do not get with him.
Doctors Appointment- At my doctors appointment they asked about my contractions and I told them I had a couple but that my biggest problem was pressure. I can barely walk due to it. So the nurse said even though the doctor that day usually does not check until 39 weeks, she would take a look just to see what was going on down there. I ended up being 1 1\2 dilated and 100% effaced. She "thought" that I would not make it to my next appointment, let alone past this weekend but...we will see. I know just because she thinks something does not automatically mean it will happen. But I reeeallllyyy hope she is right. My next appointment is Thursday the 28th but they all said they hope I am not at it. Her checking me caused me a lot of contractions and some bleeding so I got excited but they eventually stopped and now I am just waiting again.
Labor signs- See above.
It just occured to me that since I will no longer be at work, I will no longer have access to a computer to do these updates. Hmmm. I might be able to do some sort of update on my phone but I make no promises since I have never tried to know what my phone is capable of. No matter what, as soon as I am able to update I will. I promise.
Friday, August 15, 2014
37 Week Update
How far along: 37 Weeks
Total weight gain: 34 pounds. ( No weight gain from last week)
Maternity clothes: For my birthday I got some more long and lean tank tops. I love those things.
Stretch marks: I don't seem to have any new ones. Just the gigantic ones that were there from the beginning.
Sleep: The sleep isn't really a problem, it is when I am awake trying to get comfortable. That is when it sucks. Turning over is painful and I get severe hip pain. But as far as the sleeping part, it is fine.
Best moment of this week: My mom,Kevin, and I went out to Nacho Daddy for my birthday. It had been a restaurant that Kevin had been wanting to go to for a long time and since last year I chose Islands and then he got nothing to celebrate his birthday, I decided to go there this year. We ended up deciding we wanted to still go out for his birthday. His birthday was technically yesterday(the 14th) but he did not get paid until today. So after we both get off work, we are going to go to Red Robin and get dinner and a drink(for him, I will stick to my usual). I am really excited for what could be our last restaurant meal before Landon shows up. Heck, he could try to show up for dinner. But at this point....I doubt it. He is waaaayyy too comfortable.
Miss anything: Sleeping on my stomach.
Movement: He's crazy in there sometimes.
Food cravings: I suddenly really want a tuna and egg sandwich.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing in particular.
Have you started to show yet: Yes.
Belly button in or out: It is not flat but it is right on the edge of it.
Wedding rings on or off: Still off.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am excited.
Looking forward to: I just am so excited for Landon to finally decide to arrive. Whenever he is ready, we are ready.
Doctors Appointment- My doctors appointment was the same as usual. This doctor literally was in and out in less than 5 minutes so it went very quickly(after a 2 hour bus ride to get there). All the usual stuff was great, as usual. So....nothing really to report.
Labor signs- I get the occasional cramps but other than that, there does not seem to be any signs that labor is on its way. I think he may have dropped because of how bad the pressure is sometimes, but I can't be sure that it isn't just me hoping.
I am sorry these updates are so boring. There just is not really anything going on. Everything is done, now we all are just waiting.
Total weight gain: 34 pounds. ( No weight gain from last week)
Maternity clothes: For my birthday I got some more long and lean tank tops. I love those things.
Stretch marks: I don't seem to have any new ones. Just the gigantic ones that were there from the beginning.
Sleep: The sleep isn't really a problem, it is when I am awake trying to get comfortable. That is when it sucks. Turning over is painful and I get severe hip pain. But as far as the sleeping part, it is fine.
Best moment of this week: My mom,Kevin, and I went out to Nacho Daddy for my birthday. It had been a restaurant that Kevin had been wanting to go to for a long time and since last year I chose Islands and then he got nothing to celebrate his birthday, I decided to go there this year. We ended up deciding we wanted to still go out for his birthday. His birthday was technically yesterday(the 14th) but he did not get paid until today. So after we both get off work, we are going to go to Red Robin and get dinner and a drink(for him, I will stick to my usual). I am really excited for what could be our last restaurant meal before Landon shows up. Heck, he could try to show up for dinner. But at this point....I doubt it. He is waaaayyy too comfortable.
Miss anything: Sleeping on my stomach.
Movement: He's crazy in there sometimes.
Food cravings: I suddenly really want a tuna and egg sandwich.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing in particular.
Have you started to show yet: Yes.
Belly button in or out: It is not flat but it is right on the edge of it.
Wedding rings on or off: Still off.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am excited.
Looking forward to: I just am so excited for Landon to finally decide to arrive. Whenever he is ready, we are ready.
Doctors Appointment- My doctors appointment was the same as usual. This doctor literally was in and out in less than 5 minutes so it went very quickly(after a 2 hour bus ride to get there). All the usual stuff was great, as usual. So....nothing really to report.
Labor signs- I get the occasional cramps but other than that, there does not seem to be any signs that labor is on its way. I think he may have dropped because of how bad the pressure is sometimes, but I can't be sure that it isn't just me hoping.
I am sorry these updates are so boring. There just is not really anything going on. Everything is done, now we all are just waiting.
Friday, August 8, 2014
36 Week Update
How far along: 36 Weeks
Total weight gain: 40 pounds. (The 6 pound increase in one week kind of worried me but the nurse did not seem to think it was a big deal)
Maternity clothes: All of my clothes seems to be 20 sizes too small for me. No matter how long my shirt is, my stomach always peeks out from under it.
Stretch marks: I don't seem to have any new ones. Just the gigantic ones that were there from the beginning.
Sleep: The sleep isn't really a problem, it is when I am awake trying to get comfortable. That is when it sucks. Turning over is painful and I get severe hip pain. But as far as the sleeping part, it is fine.
Best moment of this week: The day of my doctors appointment, Kevin had off work so we were able to spend the whole day together. I had a really good time with him. We went to my appointment, went to Carls Jr, and then went swimming. It was nice to spend some last minute alone time with him before everything happens.
Miss anything: Sleeping on my stomach.
Movement: He's crazy in there sometimes.
Food cravings: Nope.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing in particular.
Have you started to show yet: Yes.
Belly button in or out: It is not flat but it is right on the edge of it.
Wedding rings on or off: Still off.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am excited.
Looking forward to: My birthday is the 9th so that is really cool. Of course I am not going to be getting drunk this year but I do not mind. I get a better gift.
Doctors Appointment- Nothing big happened at my doctors appointment. My Group B Strep test came back negative so of course that was a good thing to hear. Other than that everything was the same as always. All the usual tests were great, Landon measured at 37 weeks, heartbeat was great. It was a quick and easy appointment. The doctor I saw was really nice but it was strange to not be with my old doctor. Then next week I have a totally different doctor.
Labor signs- So Sunday morning I went with Kevin to Labor and Delivery due to decreased fetal movement. Long story short, Landon had just moved into a position I could not feel him. As soon as the monitor was on him, he had ten movements in a matter of a few minutes and moved nonstop the entire time I was there. So baby was perfectly healthy and the nurses were impressed. The problem was not him....it was me.
The nurse told me to let her know when I needed to pee so she could get a urine sample, and I was looking at her. Next thing I know I am staring at Kevin's face and the nurse is gone. I could feel something was wrong and told him to get help. Six nurses rushed in and started all talking at once. One was shoving needles into my arm for an IV. Another was giving me sips of something. Another was drawing blood. Someone was trying to turn me on my side. Someone else was babbling about my vitals being perfect and why was this happening.
Meanwhile I can barely keep my eyes open and sweat is pouring from me. My vitals are perfect but I am obviously not alright. They are all panicking. Eventually my body started calming down and they decided to watch me for a little bit. After my "episode", I was fine. They have no idea what happened so they are guessing it had to do with anxiety(my blood sugar was fine). Luckily Landon was not affected by what was happening and they said he just kept playing around as usual. So that is good. They also saw that I was having a bunch of little contractions, but just a few that were actually worth noting. But they said that means that things are working towards the finish line. After a couple hours I was fine, baby was fantastic, so they decided to send me home and told me hopefully the next time I come back it is baby time.
Total weight gain: 40 pounds. (The 6 pound increase in one week kind of worried me but the nurse did not seem to think it was a big deal)
Maternity clothes: All of my clothes seems to be 20 sizes too small for me. No matter how long my shirt is, my stomach always peeks out from under it.
Stretch marks: I don't seem to have any new ones. Just the gigantic ones that were there from the beginning.
Sleep: The sleep isn't really a problem, it is when I am awake trying to get comfortable. That is when it sucks. Turning over is painful and I get severe hip pain. But as far as the sleeping part, it is fine.
Best moment of this week: The day of my doctors appointment, Kevin had off work so we were able to spend the whole day together. I had a really good time with him. We went to my appointment, went to Carls Jr, and then went swimming. It was nice to spend some last minute alone time with him before everything happens.
Miss anything: Sleeping on my stomach.
Movement: He's crazy in there sometimes.
Food cravings: Nope.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing in particular.
Have you started to show yet: Yes.
Belly button in or out: It is not flat but it is right on the edge of it.
Wedding rings on or off: Still off.
Happy or moody most of the time: I am excited.
Looking forward to: My birthday is the 9th so that is really cool. Of course I am not going to be getting drunk this year but I do not mind. I get a better gift.
Doctors Appointment- Nothing big happened at my doctors appointment. My Group B Strep test came back negative so of course that was a good thing to hear. Other than that everything was the same as always. All the usual tests were great, Landon measured at 37 weeks, heartbeat was great. It was a quick and easy appointment. The doctor I saw was really nice but it was strange to not be with my old doctor. Then next week I have a totally different doctor.
Labor signs- So Sunday morning I went with Kevin to Labor and Delivery due to decreased fetal movement. Long story short, Landon had just moved into a position I could not feel him. As soon as the monitor was on him, he had ten movements in a matter of a few minutes and moved nonstop the entire time I was there. So baby was perfectly healthy and the nurses were impressed. The problem was not him....it was me.
The nurse told me to let her know when I needed to pee so she could get a urine sample, and I was looking at her. Next thing I know I am staring at Kevin's face and the nurse is gone. I could feel something was wrong and told him to get help. Six nurses rushed in and started all talking at once. One was shoving needles into my arm for an IV. Another was giving me sips of something. Another was drawing blood. Someone was trying to turn me on my side. Someone else was babbling about my vitals being perfect and why was this happening.
Meanwhile I can barely keep my eyes open and sweat is pouring from me. My vitals are perfect but I am obviously not alright. They are all panicking. Eventually my body started calming down and they decided to watch me for a little bit. After my "episode", I was fine. They have no idea what happened so they are guessing it had to do with anxiety(my blood sugar was fine). Luckily Landon was not affected by what was happening and they said he just kept playing around as usual. So that is good. They also saw that I was having a bunch of little contractions, but just a few that were actually worth noting. But they said that means that things are working towards the finish line. After a couple hours I was fine, baby was fantastic, so they decided to send me home and told me hopefully the next time I come back it is baby time.
Friday, August 1, 2014
35 Week Update
How far along: 35 Weeks
Total weight gain: 34 pounds.
Maternity clothes: Just making what I have work. I keep having to pull my shirt down because the bottom of my stomach sticks out. I refuse to be "that" pregnant person. Haha.
Stretch marks: They do not even phase me anymore. They are large and in charge.
Sleep: Eh...I do my best.
Best moment of this week: This is not a best moment this week but I realized I never wrote about the fact Kevin got a job. I guess in a way I was worried about jinxing it. But I keep writing about him not being around and I feel like it makes him sound like he is off running the streets or something. He isn't, I promise. I want to say he got it around the end of June, although it could have been before that. He is trying really hard to be successful so it is a big relief to see. We both are kind of scared to get our hopes up because something always goes wrong. But so far, everything is good.
Miss anything: Not really.
Movement: His routine seems to be set. He moves throughout the day with occasional kicks to the ribs that make me jump and everyone stare at me. And then at night has a party in there while I am falling asleep. The day of my appointment I came home and fell asleep on the couch, Kevin got home and sat on the floor next to me and laid his head on my stomach. I guess it got Landon excited because he started jumping around. He seems to like when daddy is around. I like when daddy is around also.
Food cravings: Nope.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing in particular.
Have you started to show yet: Yes and everyone likes to make it known to me that I am huge.
Belly button in or out: My belly button was hurting so I looked at it and it actually does seem to be flattening out. It is not flat yet but I would say..right before. There is a bit of an indent but not much. The entire outside of my belly button feels all weird and loose. It is hard to explain.
Wedding rings on or off: Still off.
Happy or moody most of the time: Anxious. But in a good way.
Looking forward to: Meeting my baby boy. I am more and more excited every week that passes because I am closer to his birth day. It is August now so...any day.
Doctors Appointment- So Kevin was at work and my mom had just worked all night, so I had to go to the appointment by myself this time. No big deal. I was nervous I would get lost on the bus since it was a route I have never taken before but once I did it I was fine. I needed to know the route anyway incase I end up needing to ride the bus when I go into labor. So I got there and did my usual urine, blood pressure, etc. All of that was great as usual. It was my last appointment with my doctor so that was a bummer. I really do like her. But she needs to be with her mom so I will live. Anyway, Landon got measured and is measuring at 37 weeks. Yeah....no wonder my back hurts all the time. I also got the GBS test done and it was no big deal. So now I just have to wait for the results next week. My next appointment is the 7th. I also have a breastfeeding class on the 5th so that is cool too, even though it is not a doctors appointment.
Labor signs- I have been having a lot of these period type cramps for about the past two weeks. Some days they go all day and others they are only a couple hours a day. I know that they are not contractions or anything but I can tell that my body is preparing in its own way. I just am always so worried I will not know when it is time to head to the hospital and when it is too soon. I know it is something I will figure out eventually but right now it is really overwhelming.
Total weight gain: 34 pounds.
Maternity clothes: Just making what I have work. I keep having to pull my shirt down because the bottom of my stomach sticks out. I refuse to be "that" pregnant person. Haha.
Stretch marks: They do not even phase me anymore. They are large and in charge.
Sleep: Eh...I do my best.
Best moment of this week: This is not a best moment this week but I realized I never wrote about the fact Kevin got a job. I guess in a way I was worried about jinxing it. But I keep writing about him not being around and I feel like it makes him sound like he is off running the streets or something. He isn't, I promise. I want to say he got it around the end of June, although it could have been before that. He is trying really hard to be successful so it is a big relief to see. We both are kind of scared to get our hopes up because something always goes wrong. But so far, everything is good.
Miss anything: Not really.
Movement: His routine seems to be set. He moves throughout the day with occasional kicks to the ribs that make me jump and everyone stare at me. And then at night has a party in there while I am falling asleep. The day of my appointment I came home and fell asleep on the couch, Kevin got home and sat on the floor next to me and laid his head on my stomach. I guess it got Landon excited because he started jumping around. He seems to like when daddy is around. I like when daddy is around also.
Food cravings: Nope.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing in particular.
Have you started to show yet: Yes and everyone likes to make it known to me that I am huge.
Belly button in or out: My belly button was hurting so I looked at it and it actually does seem to be flattening out. It is not flat yet but I would say..right before. There is a bit of an indent but not much. The entire outside of my belly button feels all weird and loose. It is hard to explain.
Wedding rings on or off: Still off.
Happy or moody most of the time: Anxious. But in a good way.
Looking forward to: Meeting my baby boy. I am more and more excited every week that passes because I am closer to his birth day. It is August now so...any day.
Doctors Appointment- So Kevin was at work and my mom had just worked all night, so I had to go to the appointment by myself this time. No big deal. I was nervous I would get lost on the bus since it was a route I have never taken before but once I did it I was fine. I needed to know the route anyway incase I end up needing to ride the bus when I go into labor. So I got there and did my usual urine, blood pressure, etc. All of that was great as usual. It was my last appointment with my doctor so that was a bummer. I really do like her. But she needs to be with her mom so I will live. Anyway, Landon got measured and is measuring at 37 weeks. Yeah....no wonder my back hurts all the time. I also got the GBS test done and it was no big deal. So now I just have to wait for the results next week. My next appointment is the 7th. I also have a breastfeeding class on the 5th so that is cool too, even though it is not a doctors appointment.
Labor signs- I have been having a lot of these period type cramps for about the past two weeks. Some days they go all day and others they are only a couple hours a day. I know that they are not contractions or anything but I can tell that my body is preparing in its own way. I just am always so worried I will not know when it is time to head to the hospital and when it is too soon. I know it is something I will figure out eventually but right now it is really overwhelming.
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